“Never stop dreaming,”
said the king. “Follow the omens.”
I wrote several times here how busy I am and it’s been like
that since New Year. I’ve been sick and working, travelling and doing tons of
things at a time. Well, my busyness finally caught up with me. I cut myself so
badly I now have stitches and can’t use my left hand most of the time. I guess,
my body tried to send me signals that I ought to slow down but I wasn’t “listening”.
Well, now I have to “listen”.
Usually, when there is something going on on subcautious level
and we can’t stop and think about it, our body will eventually make us stop.
For example, since last summer my life’s been roller coaster in every possible
way. I was changing careers; I was moving, packing, unpacking. Emotionally I
was challenged as well. Since last
summer, things have just been happening one after another and I have been physically
and emotionally exhausted. However, only recently when I felt I needed to speed
up even more did I started to feel my body giving up on me. First I came down
with flu then I have hurt myself. Our body will make us stop no matter what.
And when this happens we need to acknowledge it. We ought to realize that this is
happening for our own good. Our subcautious wants to give us an important
message. Whether it’s about our job and us over-extending ourselves on it or some
stressful situation we have experienced, guilt if we hurt another person or anger
if we’ve been hurt ourselves, our mind is trying to send us a message that we
need to address the issue in order to move on with our lives.
Sometimes, we need to “reboot our systems”, we need to start
afresh and our bodies will let us know that even if we don’t want to acknowledge
it. In the winter of 2010 I have decided
in most unusual way I will begin all the changes that happened last summer.
Many people at my last job have been leaving the place, most of them changing
their careers. That winter, I have been sick for weeks. I have had cold, then
flu, then cold again until I’ve decided I have to stay home to rest. Then I
would get up at night and could not go back to sleep. Once, I’ve got up at
night and all of a sudden I knew what I ought to do in my life. Everything
became crystal clear. That same day, I started to feel better. Obviously my
rebooting is not done yet, since I am knocked out once again to stay at home
and not be able to do much but think.
However, if I ask myself was starting afresh worth all the
pain I’ve experienced, am experiencing and possibly will experience for some
time, I would cautiously say ‘yes’. But deep down in my heart that ‘yes’ echoes
stronger, because no matter the pain I know I needed the change in my life and I
know I have done the right thing.
See, I believe it’s far better to chase a dream and go
through pain of getting what you really want in life than to abandon it, be
successful in a different field, and always wander if your life would be better
if you tried to live your dream. You see, we always regret more the things we
have not done than does we have.
So, if you’re going through life change as I am now, hang in
there. If you feel what you’re doing is right then probably it is.
“Once we have overcome the defeats—and we always do—we are
filled by a greater sense of euphoria and confidence…. We start to live with
enthusiasm and pleasure.” ~Paolo Coelho~
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